Well, another day is over, and I’m still hanging on. But just that – nothing more. Weight is holding steady . . . eating is involving some good and some not so good. Calories are hovering above 1500/day. But I’m still trying. And in the past I would have thrown in the towel, eaten upwards of 2500 cals a day, and gained a good 5-10 pounds before the year was over, so this is progress. It is. But I still need to give myself a little peptalk:
I think I said this a couple days ago, but it’s like I want to have my cake and eat it too. I want to lose weight and be able to have lots of indulgences as well. And that’ won’t happen. I have to be willing to give up something that I want for something even better. Which do I want more? The momentary satisfaction of a few bites of dessert or the lingering satisfaction of knowing I overcame the dessert and that I’m reaching my goals? I mean, really, it should be a no brainer. And the other thing is this: even if when I do give in to the dessert, I still want more. When I’m done with one piece of chocolate, I simply want another. If anything, eating one bite of something only makes it that much easier to say yes to the next bite and so on. The flip-side, though, is that making a good decision makes it that much easier to make another good decision and so on. The domino effect. And I haven’t had much positive momentum lately (my own fault, of course). That’s why I’ve just barely been hanging on. Every chocie I make is a fight instead of using momentum. But every choice, every bite counts. That’s why it’s so important to keep avoiding the chocolate…not only do I save those calories, but I’m making it more likely that my next food decision will be an even better one!