This is the song that never ends, my friends. Some people started singin’ it not knowin’ what it was and they’ll continue singin’ it because this si teh song that never ends, my friends . . .
Do you remember that song from when you were a kid. It goes on and on and never ends. That’s how it’s been going for me the past few months. I can’t seeem to break this viscious cycle and you’re probably getting tired of reading about it. I do pretty well for a week, then the next week mon-wed I started doing worse but I’m still hanging on. By Thursday I throw in the towel altogether and go crazy. Then I restart the next cycle. It’s a viscious, viscious cycle that never ends. Well, today (Thursday) I definitely went crazy. Have I lost my ever-lovin mind? Now that I add it all up I literally ate a little over 3000 calories! (No, that’s not a typo I did say THREE thousand, yep THREE.) It’s amazing how easy that is when you are eating little bits of super calorie dense foods all throghout the day.
Well, guess what, my friends???
THIS SONG IS GOING TO END.
RIGHT NOW. N-O-W. NOW. This is ridiculous. I’m a reasonably intelligent human being and I shouldn’t be letting this stupid cycle control me. It will stop now. Honestly, I’m at my wits end when it comes to figure out why this is happening. It seems like I’ve tried many reasonable approaches. I have struggled through like this for about five months. It has taken a tremendous amount of effort just to maintain this weight (even though I have a lot to lose – we’re not talking losing the last 10 or 20 pounds so I can fit into a size 6 or 8 – I’d love to be there, honestly.) This is the longest period of time that I have actually maintained my weight and been trying since I was about 12. I honestly don’t if I’m making progress or not. I don’t know if that’s good or bad. But I do know this: it stops now. Oh, and did I mention that I was ending this viscious cycle now???
So here’s the plan:
- Go to bed early (be in bed by 8:45pm – I’m getting a cold, so I need a lot of extra rest)
- Eat a healthy breakfast
- Pack a healthy lunch and healthy, easy-to-eat snacks for work
- Workout for whatever amount of time that I can find, even if it’s not a lot